: SOS
Dr. POW said at my appointment on Friday that I have to spend 90% of my energy just to make sure that I'm functioning and somewhat stable, and that I only have 10% left to keep trying to learn and move forward.
I am definitely in the wrong discipline for that. I'm starting to think more and more that there's no realistic way I can do this and stay healthy. That it's just not possible. It's only the end of the first week of the quarter, and I feel like I'm drowning just thinking about everything. I sincerely doubt that I can do this.
I know at this point that it's not just a lack of confidence- it's a realization that, if I attempt to do everything I have to do, it will make me very, very sick.
I just want to run away. I want out, and I want out now.
Other than that, I'm happy. I love my friends, I love my family, and I miss my girlfriend terribly.
Dr. POW said at my appointment on Friday that I have to spend 90% of my energy just to make sure that I'm functioning and somewhat stable, and that I only have 10% left to keep trying to learn and move forward.
I am definitely in the wrong discipline for that. I'm starting to think more and more that there's no realistic way I can do this and stay healthy. That it's just not possible. It's only the end of the first week of the quarter, and I feel like I'm drowning just thinking about everything. I sincerely doubt that I can do this.
I know at this point that it's not just a lack of confidence- it's a realization that, if I attempt to do everything I have to do, it will make me very, very sick.
I just want to run away. I want out, and I want out now.
Other than that, I'm happy. I love my friends, I love my family, and I miss my girlfriend terribly.